I want to write a piece
Guy behind this pen
Writing again and again
Telling about my stories as I recite this
My life is a poem, which is endless,
Soul with guilts and regrets
Lost in words and flowing in emotions I have..
Pain and disappointment has always kept me embrace
But still trying to move through effortless grace.
Yes I am trying, crying…
You can see my face, my lips drying.
Now, let me be real with you as I write this.
I don’t want to sound fake with a sigh of bliss.
Deep down my heart is aching, soul crushing inside me
This is what really defines me, Now can you see??
My subconscious mind is something I don’t wanna deal with.
Every time I choose, I have to deal with shit.
I keep losing people around me,
My friends and lovely thee
You guys never liked me coz I was never like you
But still I let you guys in my life, As I do it for few
And you guys left giving me no clue.
My friend made me what I am today
As I recall those times when they behaved Like a slay.
Drowned in my misery, Is this what I have to pay?
Look at me,
Just don’t hook at me.
Do you have something to say ?
Was my friendship just a game for you to play!?!
Now let’s come to another chapter
As I control my laughter
Another reason for my disaster
With a fake smile like some P.O.P plaster!!
I loved a girl, she was my best friend, I loved her like a blind.
She was my fellow traveller like a healthy sunshine.
I thought, I had everything I could ever find,
But as soon as her journey arrived,
she left proving me that she was never mine.
It’s ok , I am fine!!
Sitting on this table having pasta and wine!!
Looking at your picture on my rack
And Now, I find no one when I look back
Leaving me like a dirty sack.
You left me lame like cold headed,
Leaving me dependent on few medic..
wishing I was dead.
You all should be proud for making me what I am.
Not that I am ashamed of myself or trying to blame.
I don’t seek attention by playing dirty games.
I am writing this just to let you know my part of story,
Not for some fame or glory
Still if you think I am hurting you.
I say , I am sorry!!
It’s just my emotions, I feel lonely, expecting you guys beside me.
Waiting to be loved, As my soul gets free.
I wish you could see,
Now , I am just a living thing in a form of a tree.