If I decide to die

If I decide to die,
Will you come to say me goodbye?
If I decide to fly,
Will you come to ask me why.?

I don’t know when this feeling started,
As days passed I felt departed.

Many were there at the start of the race
Making me realise that I was not the only
Family ,friends, realtives and their beautiful prays
Far they left, Now that I turn back, I feel lonely.

Dreams I saw, I always tried to chase,
Things were good then came the unexpected phase.

Slowly, slowly.!! Everything disappeared,
When I looked around you were the only one who appeared.
Having faith in you which kept me going,
Untill you left and the river stopped flowing.

Jobs went out in the name of Recession.
You opted out by my act of Aggression.
Now I can’t hold back my thoughts of Suppression.
I will quit the world with the phrase of depression.

Once trust and love nurtured in these pot,
Now it can be seen just an empty slot.

As am writing, something is stopping me from inside,
Don’t Quit.!! There’s nothing to cry.
I remember your words, which once you said sitting beside,
Don’t Quit.!! Give another try.

I should not expect, there is no word such called sympathy.
The only way to survive has the key word apathy.

Life is so cruel.!! I should go with its flow,
Defeating the pain again I will glow.
Recalling your words again I will try,
Promise you ; I will never cry.

Feeling your presence as you were there with me all this while, Looking at your picture, felling your essence which always makes me smile.

Now I know If I decide to fly, You will always be there to ask me why.!!